wayang semalam terselit wayang hidup

wayang semalam terselit wayang hidup..
wayang kehidupan realiti..
ketika minda aku di jajah wayang fantasi..
realitinya...
wayang kulit manusia yang membaluti..
dosa dan pahala..
sayang dan benci..
aku deklarasikan paksi hati ini..
aku takut akan kehilangan..
aku takut akan kematian..
aku takut..aku takut..aku sangat takut..

wayang semalam terselit wayang hidup..
ketika boneka menari-nari di atas kain putih..
aku bermati-matian mencorak kain putih..
antara warna gelap ketakutan..
atau warna terang keindahan..
membiarkan berus warna di tari kan oleh tangan..
membiarkan pemikiran mencari hujung jalan..
yang penting..
semalam aku sedar..
ada wayang hidup yang terselit dalam wayang semalam..
dan aku takut..

mat top
24th april 2009
01:45 pm

message in the bottle

(i really wanted to write a message in the bottle..so i guess this is how its gonna be..)

for whoever find this..congratulation..u just won urself a love story of all time..

this is da story..

there's guy and a girl who find themselves in love..they never find da love actually..it just came to theirselves..to their world..da love that they was having was so strong..even the elders cant stop it..even theirselve cant stop it..but GOD is all Mighty..God put their situation in a very hard condition..if they think their love is so true..they have to get out from a very complicated situation..they never know wut will happen..but deep down inside they pull out all of da love strength and show it to this angel..the guy said "look..this is how much i wanted to live with this girl..she was so perfect for me..she take me as i'am..she gonna be the lovely mother of my kids.." the guy take a knife n bleed his hand till the blood dried out..but he still breathing..he is still alive..the guy then said "now i live with the strength of my love for her..please god let me live forever with her..or else..i got no reason to live at all" the little angel drop a tears and look at that girl..the girl was sleeping by that time..she was dreaming about an angel come to her...untill now...n the guy was still trying to wake the girl up from the dream and bring her to someplace where actually the same place the girl was dreaming..and he is da angel..

sudut untuk pari-pari

di satu sudut yang kita cipta..
kita terduduk..
senyum..
rindu...
kita cipta hemisfera untuk pari-pari datang..
kita tunggu dia datang..
tak mungkin malam ini...

tapi dia pasti datang...

mat top
25 march 2009
09:59 pm

knock..knock..its not a joke..

knock..knock...
whos there..?
love..
love who..?
love who u didnt know when it gonna comes..or when it will exist..u just know it when u know whos knocking at ur mind...

i know i cant

i wish we were staring at the same star now..
laughing at the moon..
walking the journey with the same step..
like a happy soldier marching..
for winning the battle in ourselves..
and sleep the nite with smile..
wishing the same thing fo tomorrow..
or even better..
i cant stop smiling..
i cant stop dreaming..
i cant stop wondering..
i just cant..

ada seekor kucing yang merayau-rayau di satu padang hijau yang lapang ketika langit mendung...merayau-rayau bermain lalang-lalang tinggi..mengusik lembut rumput-rumput halus..menguak perasaan nya untuk menerima kenyataan...dia seekor disitu bermain tanpa teman..dia mendongak ke awan mendung yang tak hujan..dia merasakan kedatangan dia di padang hijau yang lapang itu sebenarnya bersebab..padang itu menerimanya..awan itu juga menerimanya..perasaan ini amat ganjil..tapi dia selesa dan senang dengan kehadirannnya..dia ingin kekal disitu..

sama dengan

satu biji batu..sama dengan..
5 biji bom motar..
1 biji bom motar sama dengan..
berpuluh-puluh serangan kereta kebal..
kereta kebal??takde....maka..
satu biji batu semula..dan kali ini...
sama dengan berpuluh-puluh serangan peluru berpandu..
satu biji batu lagi sama dengan..
bepuluh-puluh bom phosphorus..
dan akhirnya..tiada lagi sama dengan..
kerana memang takkan sama..
kerana memang takkan adil..
mungkin ini yang cuba dibuktikan ibnu khaldun..
dalam teori kitaran..